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Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana

By Bhaktivinoda Thakura From Kalyanakalpataru

1
āmi ati pāmara durjana ki korinu hāya hāya prakṛtira dāsatāya kāṭāinu amūlya jībana
Word for word
āmi I; ati very; pāmara sinful; durjana wicked; ki indeed; korinu I do; hāya als; hāya alas; prakṛtira of matter; dāsatāya as a slave; kāṭāinu I sent; amūlya priceless; jībana life
Translation

I am a most wretched sinner. Alas! Alas! I passed this priceless lifetime as a slave of matter.

2
koto dina garbhābāse kāṭāinu anāyāse bālya gelo bala-dharma-baśe grāmya-dharma e jaubana miche dinu bisarjana bṛddha-kāla elo abaśeṣe
Word for word
kotaḥ how many; dina days; garbha in the womb; ābāse residence; kāṭāinu I spent; anāyāse easily; bālya childhood; gelaḥ went; bala-dharma-baśe in the control of cbildish activities; grāmya-dharma household activities; e this; jaubana in youth; miche falsely; dinu I did; bisarjana waste; bṛddha-kāla in old age; elaḥ gone; abaśeṣe the remainder
Translation

How many days did I pass in the womb? My childhood passed in childish activities. My youth was foolishly thrown away in household life. Now only old-age is left.

3
biṣaye nāhiko sukha bhoga-śakti su-baimukha anta danta śarīra aśakta jībana jantraṇamoya maraṇete sadā bhoya bolo kise hoi anurakta
Word for word
biṣaye in material sense objects; nāhikaḥ not; sukha happines; bhoga-śakti the power of sense gratification; su-baimukha very averse; anta at the end; danta teeth; śarīra bopdy; aśakta unable; jībana life; jantraṇamoya made of suffering; maraṇete in death; sadā always; bhoya fear; bolo say; kise how?; hoi is; anurakta attachment
Translation

I have no power to enjoy sense pleasures. I turn from them. At the end my teeth and my body are powerless. My whole life is pain. I fear death. Tell me: how can I like this kind of life?

4
bhoga-bastu-bhoga-śakti ta'te chilo anurakti je parjanta chilo dehe bala samasta bigata ho'lo ki loiyā thāki bolo ebe citta sadāi cañcala
Word for word
bhoga enjoyment; bastu things; bhoga enjoyment; śakti power; ta'te that; chilaḥ is; anurakti attachment; je which; parjanta at the end; chilaḥ is; dehe body; bala power; samasta all; bigata gone; ho'laḥ is; ki what; loiyā accepting; thāki I stay; bolaḥ say; ebe now; citta heart; sadāi always; cañcala mishcievous
Translation

As long as my body was strong and I had the power to enjoy, I was happy. Now my powers have all gone away. Tell me: Why is my heart always restless now?

5
sāmarthya thākite kāya hari nā bhajinu hāya asanna kālete kibā kori dhik mora e jībane nā sādhinu nitya-dhane mitra chāri' bhajilāma ari
Word for word
sāmarthya ability; thākite to stay; kāya body; hari Kṛṣṇa; nā not; bhajinu I worshiped; hāya alas; asanna was; kālete time; kibā how?; kori I do; dhik alas; mora of me; e this; jībane life; nā nopt; sādhinu I spent; nitya eternal; dhane in wealth; mitra friend; chāri' renouncing; bhajilāma I worshiped; ari my enemy
Translation

When I had the power, I did not worship Lord Kṛṣṇa. Now the final moment has come. What will I do? My life was wasted. I did not find the eternal treasure. Turning from my true friend, I worshiped my enemies.

About Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana

Opens Anutapa-laksana-upalabdhi, following Nirveda-laksana-upalabdhi. Where that section worked through disillusionment with material life generally, this one turns the same scrutiny inward, opening with blunt self-accusation, ami ati pamara durjana, I am extremely fallen and wicked.

Verses
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Frequently asked

Who wrote Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana?

Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana was composed by Bhaktivinoda Thakura. It appears in Kalyanakalpataru.

What is the meaning of Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana?

I am a most wretched sinner. Alas! Alas! I passed this priceless lifetime as a slave of matter.

How many verses does Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana have?

Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana has 5 verses.

Can I download Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana as a PPT or PDF?

Yes. A ready-to-display slide deck for Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana — verse and translation on each slide — is available to download in both PowerPoint (.pptx) and PDF formats from this page, for use in kirtan or temple programs.

ॐ Hare Krishna Movement, Kota — Nandgram Dham https://nandgramdham.org/songs/ami-ati-pamara-durjana/

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