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Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana

Humility & Repentance (Dainya, Anutāpa)

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āmi ati pāmara durjana ki korinu hāya hāya prakṛtira dāsatāya kāṭāinu amūlya jībana

Word for word

āmi—I; ati—very; pāmara—sinful; durjana—wicked; ki—indeed; korinu—I do; hāya—als; hāya—alas; prakṛtira—of matter; dāsatāya—as a slave; kāṭāinu—I sent; amūlya—priceless; jībana—life

Translation

I am a most wretched sinner. Alas! Alas! I passed this priceless lifetime as a slave of matter.

2

koto dina garbhābāse kāṭāinu anāyāse bālya gelo bala-dharma-baśe grāmya-dharma e jaubana miche dinu bisarjana bṛddha-kāla elo abaśeṣe

Word for word

kotaḥ—how many; dina—days; garbha—in the womb; ābāse—residence; kāṭāinu—I spent; anāyāse—easily; bālya—childhood; gelaḥ—went; bala-dharma-baśe—in the control of cbildish activities; grāmya-dharma—household activities; e—this; jaubana—in youth; miche—falsely; dinu—I did; bisarjana—waste; bṛddha-kāla—in old age; elaḥ—gone; abaśeṣe—the remainder

Translation

How many days did I pass in the womb? My childhood passed in childish activities. My youth was foolishly thrown away in household life. Now only old-age is left.

3

biṣaye nāhiko sukha bhoga-śakti su-baimukha anta danta śarīra aśakta jībana jantraṇamoya maraṇete sadā bhoya bolo kise hoi anurakta

Word for word

biṣaye—in material sense objects; nāhikaḥ—not; sukha—happines; bhoga-śakti—the power of sense gratification; su-baimukha—very averse; anta—at the end; danta—teeth; śarīra—bopdy; aśakta—unable; jībana—life; jantraṇamoya—made of suffering; maraṇete—in death; sadā—always; bhoya—fear; bolo-say; kise—how?; hoi—is; anurakta—attachment

Translation

I have no power to enjoy sense pleasures. I turn from them. At the end my teeth and my body are powerless. My whole life is pain. I fear death. Tell me: how can I like this kind of life?

4

bhoga-bastu-bhoga-śakti ta'te chilo anurakti je parjanta chilo dehe bala samasta bigata ho'lo ki loiyā thāki bolo ebe citta sadāi cañcala

Word for word

bhoga—enjoyment; bastu—things; bhoga—enjoyment; śakti—power; ta'te—that; chilaḥ—is; anurakti—attachment; je—which; parjanta—at the end; chilaḥ—is; dehe—body; bala—power; samasta—all; bigata—gone; ho'laḥ—is; ki—what; loiyā—accepting; thāki—I stay; bolaḥ—say; ebe—now; citta—heart; sadāi—always; cañcala—mishcievous

Translation

As long as my body was strong and I had the power to enjoy, I was happy. Now my powers have all gone away. Tell me: Why is my heart always restless now?

5

sāmarthya thākite kāya hari nā bhajinu hāya asanna kālete kibā kori dhik mora e jībane nā sādhinu nitya-dhane mitra chāri' bhajilāma ari

Word for word

sāmarthya—ability; thākite—to stay; kāya—body; hari—Kṛṣṇa; nā—not; bhajinu—I worshiped; hāya—alas; asanna—was; kālete—time; kibā—how?; kori—I do; dhik—alas; mora—of me; e—this; jībane—life; nā—nopt; sādhinu—I spent; nitya—eternal; dhane—in wealth; mitra—friend; chāri'—renouncing; bhajilāma—I worshiped; ari—my enemy

Translation

When I had the power, I did not worship Lord Kṛṣṇa. Now the final moment has come. What will I do? My life was wasted. I did not find the eternal treasure. Turning from my true friend, I worshiped my enemies.

About Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana

Opens Anutapa-laksana-upalabdhi, following Nirveda-laksana-upalabdhi. Where that section worked through disillusionment with material life generally, this one turns the same scrutiny inward, opening with blunt self-accusation, ami ati pamara durjana, I am extremely fallen and wicked.

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Who wrote Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana?

Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana was composed by Bhaktivinoda Thakura. It appears in Kalyanakalpataru.

What is the meaning of Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana?

I am a most wretched sinner. Alas! Alas! I passed this priceless lifetime as a slave of matter.

How many verses does Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana have?

Āmi Ati Pāmara Durjana has 5 verses.

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