Jauvane Jakhona Dhana Upārjane

When I was young I became greatly desirous of earning money. Remembering my religious duty, I took the hand of a wife.

saṁsāra pātā’ye, tāhāra sahita, kāla-khoy koinu koto bahu suta-sutā, janama lobhilo, marame hoinu hato saṁsāre–to household life, material existence

I established a household with her and wasted so much time. We had many sons and daughters, and I became distressed at heart.

saṁsārera bhāra, bāḍe dine dine, acala hoilo gati bārdhakya āsiyā, gherilo āmāre, asthira hoilo mati saṁsārera–of household life

The burden of my household increased day by day, and my progress towards attaining the goal of life came to a standstill. As old age came and besieged me, my mind became disturbed.

pīḍāya asthira, cintāya jwarita, abhāve jwalita cita upāya nā dekhi, andhakāra-moya, ekhona ho’yechi bhīta pīḍāya–with disease

Restless with disease and feverish with anxiety, my heart burns with unfulfilled desire. I see no way out of this darkness and have now become fearful.

maraṇa nikaṭe ghora saba samāpiyā, bhojibo tomāya, e āśā biphala mora saṁsāra–of household life, of material existence

There is no end to the torrent of the river of household life, and fearsome death always looms nearby. “After finishing all of this, I will serve You”—this hope of mine has proven vain.

ebe śuno prabhu! āmi gati-hīna, bhakativinoda koya tava kṛpā binā, sakali nirāśā, deho’ more padāśroya ebe–now

Now please listen, O Lord! I am utterly helpless. Bhakti Vinod prays, “Without Your mercy, everything is hopeless. Please give me the shelter of Your feet.”