Aparādha Phale Mama Citta Bhelo Bajra Sama
Choṭa Daśakuśī Lophā — (Choṭa Daśakuśī Lophā)
aparādha-phale mama citta bhelo bajra-sama
tuyā nāme na labhe bikāra
hatāśa hoiye hari taba nāma ucca kori'
boḍo duḥkhe ḍāki bāra bāra
aparādha - of offenses; phale - by the fruits; mama - of me; citta - heart; bhelaḥ - was; bajra - thunderbolt; sama - like; tuyā - of You; nāme - in the name; na - not; labhe - attained; bikāra - ecstasy; hata - destroyed;āśa - hopes; hoiye - is; hari - O Kṛṣṇa; taba - of You; nāma - name;ucca - loud; kori' - doing; boḍaḥ - did; duḥkhe - suffering; ḍāki - I call out;bāra - again; bāra - and again.
Because of my past offenses, my heart became like a thunderbolt. I had no ecstatic love for Your holy name. Now my hopes are all destroyed. In great distress I call Your name again and again.
dīna doyāmoya koruṇā-nidāna
bhāba-bindhu dei rākhoha parāṇa
dīna - to the poor; doyāmoya - merciful; koruṇānidāna - origin of mercy; bhāba-bindhu - ocean of birth and death; dei - pleasegive; rākhoha - please save; parāṇa - life.
O Lord merciful to the poor! O origin of all of mercy! Please save my life! Please rescue me from this ocean of birth and death!
kabe tuyā nāma-uccaraṇe mora
nayane jharabo daradara lora
kabe - when?; tuyā - of You; nāma-uccaraṇe - calling out the name; mora - of me; nayane - in the eyes; jharabaḥ - falls; daradara - again and again; lora - tears.
When will my eyes be beautified by filling with tears that constantly glide down as I chant Your holy Name?*
gadgada-swara kaṇṭhe upajabo
mukhe bolo ādha ādha bāhirābo
gadgada - faltering; swara - sound; kaṇṭhe - in the voice;
upajabaḥ - born; mukhe - in the mouth; bolaḥ - chant; ādhaādha - babb;ing; bāhirābaḥ - outside.
When will my voice falter as I chant Your holy name?
pulake barabo śarīra hāmāra
sweda-kampa-stambha habe bāra bāra
pulake - hairs standing up; barabaḥ - will be; śarīra - on the body; hāmāra - my; sweda - perspiration; kampa - trembling; stambha - being stunned; habe - will be; bāra bāra - asain and again.
When will the hairs of my body stand erect in transcendental happiness, and when will perspiration, trembling, and being stunned be manifested on my body as I chant Your holy name?
bibarṇa-śarīre hārāobuṅ jñāna
nāma-samāśroye dharobuṅ parāṇa
bibarṇa - turning pale; śarīre - body; hārāobun - will be; jñāna - knowledge; nāma-samāśroye - taking shelter of the holy name; dharobun - I will maintain; parāṇa - my life.
When will I turn pale and I fall unconscious as I keep my life under the shelter of Your holy name?
milabo hāmāra kiye aiche dina
rowe bhaktibinoda mati hīna
milabaḥ - will meet; hāmāra - of me; kiye - when;aiche - will be; dina - day; rowe - stays; bhaktibinoda - Bhaktivinoda;mati - intelligence; hīna - without.
Foolish Bhaktivinoda cries out, "O Lord, when will that day be mine?"
Frequently asked
Who wrote Aparādha Phale Mama Citta Bhelo Bajra Sama?
Aparādha Phale Mama Citta Bhelo Bajra Sama was composed by Bhaktivinoda Thakura. It appears in Gitavali.
How many verses does Aparādha Phale Mama Citta Bhelo Bajra Sama have?
Aparādha Phale Mama Citta Bhelo Bajra Sama has 7 verses.