Śrī Kṛṣṇa Caitanya Balarāma Nityānanda
Pāhiḍā-rāga
Accompanied by Their associates, to this world Lord Kṛṣṇa descended as Lord Caitanya and Lord Balarāma descended as Lord Nityānanda. They begged everyone please to accept the great treasure of love They had brought from the spiritual world of Goloka. I acted very badly. I refused to accept it.
O my wicked heart! A great javelin is now pushed into my heart. The saṅkīrtana chanting of the holy names brought a great monsoon of spiritual love. Every heart was plunged in that monsoon. Only my heart was not plunged. Destiny cheated me.
Resting in the shade of the kalpa-taru tree of the feet of Śrī Guru and the Vaiṣṇavas every soul has forgotten his burning sufferings. Not I. I am very unfortunate. I drank poison. Now I have become like a wild man. Even after a yuga I will not be delivered.
I will throw myself into a fire. I will drown in the waters. Sinful I will drink poison and die. If in spite of all my efforts destiny does not allow me to die then how can I be happy as I live and breathe?
I do not hear the descriptions of Lord Gaurāṅga's glories. Alas! Alas! I burn in the flames of a fire. The Hare Kṛṣṇa mahā-mantra does not fill my mouth. Govinda dāsa has become a walking corpse.